Just a Novice...

Light of the world, You stepped down into darkness
Open my eyes, let me see
Beauty that made this heart adore You
Hope of a life spent with You

Here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that You’re my God
You’re altogether lovely
Altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me

King of all days, O so highly exalted
Glorious in heaven above
Humbly You came to the earth you created
All for love’s sake became poor

After the past few days… maybe even weeks… this song that we sang at CF became filled with meaning for me. I dedicated this wonderful song to our God of wonders then. And I sang my heart out, despite the sore throat. I still dedicate this song to Him now. I am seeking… for His divine embrace. I sorely and badly miss Him. Maybe I’ve been too messed up. Here I am, returning as the prodigal son. It’s not over yet. There’s still a long way to go… long, long way to go.

I’m tired after the one day trip to the paddy fields. It’s mostly due to me not feeling well lately. Tomorrow we will begin our Bible study/discussion group for the new Christians and not yet Christians. This is quite a new thing for me. It’s exciting but scary at the same time. The groups has about 3 very young Christians (possibly less than a year), and 2 who are not Christians but are curious to find out more. It’s a great opportunity, but the responsibility is immense. There are a few more things to sort out. I need to be aware of certain temptations, like thinking that I can explain and defend Jesus more than the Gospels can. I should just let Jesus defend Himself. I’m sure He is more than up to it. It all comes down to the same thing again… learning to trust the sovereign God… and in this, I am still just a novice…